Freedom Awaits You! What Are You Waiting For?

This once hopeless bulimic happily tells about her transformation from misery to unlimited freedom and strength.

I came to the founder of the Metasteps process a timid, weak, ashamed, bitter, worthless, useless, overweight, disheveled, unkempt, bulimic wreck. Today, I am on a new footing. I stand tall and am counted. I have respect for others and for myself. I care more about how people feel than what they think of me. What anyone thinks of me has nothing to do with me today; but that is not how I lived my life for 33 years. Today I care more about what I think of me. I am focused and efficient. I have strong feelings and am no longer afraid of them. I feel alert, awake, and alive. Where once my heart was cold, hard, and dark, now it is filled with love.

I am experiencing radiant and abundant health with effortless abstinence from foods and amounts of foods that harm me, and I have been freely given a desire to eat foods and amounts of foods that are healthy, perfect, and right for me. I am at my right and perfect weight through no effort or management of my own. And what is amazing for this hopeless bulimic is that if I am not compulsively overeating and bingeing, I don’t have the compulsion to purge! I am no longer obsessed with and driven to exercise compulsively in an attempt to control my weight.

Some other gifts for which I am profoundly grateful are that I no longer have sick and enmeshed relationships with my family, or anyone else for that matter. This is a true miracle, because I only ever knew about “taking hostages,” instead of having relationships, which meant smothering and possessing others. I am free from any pain, shame, guilt, or hate surrounding childhood sexual abuse I experienced. I am free from the pain of a fatherless childhood and from my childish rampage to find some form of daddy, a protector in my life who would fill that raging insecurity and loneliness that had always driven me. I finally stand on my own two feet.

I am forever mindful of the truth that none of the freedom and prosperity, abundance and joy I am experiencing in my life is by my own doing. I attribute all of it not only to God, but also to Roy, who lives a life of love and service, peace and prosperity. He is a person who, day in and day out, at no charge for his time and service, has loved me and countless others who were very sick and as hopeless as me back to health. And the beautiful result is that we all thrive and want nothing more than to exuberantly share with others how they too can be lifted effortlessly out of their living nightmares of addiction and self-destruction; that is, if they are sure they can’t stop on their own, if they have had enough, and if they want to be free more than they want to be sick.

For a long time I wanted to be sick because I got a lot of attention and mileage out of it. But eventually, overeating and vomiting got completely out of control. The abyss of darkness and negativity in which I was engulfed became more than I could bear, yet I couldn’t stop any of it on my own.

It was at this time that I heard a very pretty, thin, confident, poised woman, (whom I envied, of course) tell her story of how she was a hopeless compulsive overeater and alcoholic and today is healed. She sure didn’t look like a compulsive overeater to me! I spoke with her and told her I needed help because I couldn’t stop bingeing and purging. She referred me to Roy and Be Totally Free! and I seized the opportunity.

For once in my life, I was provided a safe and nurturing environment in which to explore all the issues of my past that I had never before been able to face, despite years of therapy and 12-Step groups. I felt safe, protected, loved, and nurtured. I was not judged or condemned, made fun of, taken advantage of, ridiculed, or used in any way. From all this, the gift of self-expression was given me, and I have told you the rest. In closing, I will say that Roy’s love and the Metasteps process is magic. He performs wonders in peoples’ hearts and lives. I have been transformed, and know that you can be, too.